Cat

One thing that makes me very angry is the hesitation I feel to even start giving my Shadow some room to express itself. Why is a woman's anger, fear, sexuality, and darkness so threatening, even to herself? This morning, I had a lovely dream about a lover long gone and reuniting with him. It reminded me of a time when I was creative and confident. I also felt a moment of ferocity towards my husband, who made a joke about "catfights" that I found offensive. I don't know why the idea of women fighting each other is something funny, that people think is entertaining to watch. For the women involved, it is truly a moment of hurt and perhaps power, but it's not done for entertainment's sake. Women's anger and hurt is powerful and real, and I don't think it is something to be diminished by comparing it to animals and downplaying its intensity. Nor am I happy that my husband then wrote off my displeasure in being compared to a cat, even in jest, as "hormonal". My shadow is growling...and lashing her tail.